While on my way to starbucks, I realized I hadn't prayed dhudhr yet. It was about a quarter passed 3 and asr would surely find me here 45 mins later. Through the cab ride, I kept wondering where I was gonna pray.

The thought of having to stop by one of many mosques in the city just to pray and then get another cab to continue to Starbicks or walk the remainding distance tired me itself; and I kept thinking of what to do. ''Maybe I could go to Taj mall and find a prayer area to be designated prayer areas in the malls. But again, I didn't want to do all that walking.Then as usual,  I thought to myself, ugh, what the heck, just wait till you get home later and combine dhudr with asr. But Thank God before I could make a desicion, I remembered one of the articles I read on Suhaib webb about people who just combine prayers due to laziness and I didn't want to feel the guilt and face myself after the fact. So I made a decision that no matter what, I had at least pray dhudr while it was still in its time.

By the time  I made the decision,  I had arrived at the starbucks,but still didn't know where I was going to pray. I then realized how much I miss to death the freedom in the U.S. of praying literally anywhere and not feel uncomfortable about it. Numerous times, I I have prayed outside panera Breads, Starbucks and if anything was completely respected in the space I chose to pray. I felt bummed that here in jordan and had to think so damn hard about where to pray. But I decided I had pray big parking lot besides the starbucks behind a big car where the gourd of the parking lot wouldn't see me. ''Alright Shuruq you got this, now just ask him for the qibla and go prag behind a car. I approached the guard, he smilled and greeting me politely with a cigarette in his mouth. I asked him where the qibla was. ''Al- gibla? " He asked a bit taken aback." Aywa, Al-gibla, li-salah. Without responding, he simply got up and went inside his security booth, laid out a prayer rug for me.

I smiled, more to myself than to him, as I thought to my regarding Allah.  I took a hesitant step toward you while your responded running I love you. I prayed a prayer with gratitude and the resolve to hopefully remember to always put him first,  by putting my prayer first.  

Oh my lord, make our feet firm upon your way.Ameen